As we approach the one-year anniversary of my wife Pam’s death, Pastor Chance asked me to reflect on the last year. Here’s what God has taught me.
Life Is Hard In many ways, there is no doubt that this has been the hardest year of my life. I feel like the Lord has “put me in the depths of the pit, in the regions dark and deep” (Ps 88:6). At times, the grief has been overwhelming. Part of that struggle is the intense loneliness (only someone who has lost a spouse can comprehend this). Oh, how I miss her, especially that talk or that touch! Just trying to function without my best friend and partner in everything is so very hard. I miss her in the big things—like parenting and running the ranch/business—and in the little things—like cooking and cleaning. Or, figuring out how to cut my own hair. 😊
But God Is Good And yet I have seen so many good things happen. I have learned, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted” (Matt 5:4). My faith has grown tremendously, as God has led me to read and study Scripture like never before. Also, I have been so humbled by God’s goodness and the goodness of His people. Many people have helped me in countless ways. The greatest gift I have received from others are their prayers—from my closest friends to people whom I’ve never met. Wow! It’s amazing to be a part of God’s church.
So, if you haven’t figured out what those six letters are at the top, here’s what they mean:
Life Is Hard, God Is Good.